有许多人问过我这个问题，这也是我问过我自己很多遍的问题。只有我说服了我自己，我才有足够的勇气去正视这个选择。尤其是在疫情流行的大背景下，出了中国就不知道什么时候能再回来。可能我身边的人可能都在想以后的事情。所以，怎么样算作以后呢？

Many people asked me for the reason why I choose to go abroad, and this is also the question that I have asked myself many times. I am able to do this if and only if I persuade myself, which would bring me enough courage to make the decision. What’s worse, nobody knows when I could go home under the pandemic. It’s not only me who is thinking about the future, but what’s the future?

我决定出国的原因大概也在于此吧。我也不是不能保研，或者考研也可以。我相信还是会有比较好的结果吧，比如我要跟我室友一起学习的话，说不准也能去清华（希望室友顺利上岸）。但我仔细想了想，就感觉如果我错过了这次机会，可能又要一辈子呆在国内了。虽然这种选择也没什么不好的，但就是感觉以后会后悔吧。国内读个研究生，找个大厂工作，努力35岁不失业，努力买下个房子，大概这就是以后的生活了。简直能一眼望到底，所以我如果知道未来会发生什么，这还算是未来么。我想至少体验一种新的生活方式，给未来增加一定的不确定性。

Here’s the point, a different future. I could attend a somehow outstanding university in China if I took the exam with my roommate and support each other (wishing my roommate get a good result). However, I might never live out of China peacefully for my whole life if I give up on this chance. I will graduate from school, find a job in a big company without losing it at age 35 and buy a lovely house, which is likely my future life. It’s not a bad idea, but I may regret it. If I know what will the future be like, I don’t think it should be called “FUTURE”. I want to experience a different life and add uncertainty to my future life.

还有一个重要的原因，是我想锻炼一下我各个方面的能力。在国内，服务业实在是太发达了。吃饭、洗衣、外卖…至少在国内，你干不好的事情总会有人帮你做好，你只需要提供报酬就好了。简直天堂一般的生活，但也实在是无聊。而且，国内无论干什么，都提倡少说多做，导致了一大批社恐的人。而且国内的人干什么都很要面子，干什么都怕做错。在这样一个以和为贵的国家，就很容易peace&love了。现在的心态就是不怕忙的要死，就怕闲的要死。如果我以后只需要上上班，下班回家刷视频，周末也不出去玩，这样的生活实在是太没有挑战性了。所以也是想换个大环境，给自己一些理由，逼自己做出改变。

Besides, I want a more challenging life. The service industry is TOO advanced in China. You will always find someone to make things done. For example, the out-takings will solve the problem that people who do not like cooking. It is possible that I will not cook for a whole year during my internship, and I could also live well. I feel like it is a heaven life but a boring life. Additionally, people are encouraged to speak less and do more, which causes many people afraid of social activities. I am also the one who is afraid of “losing face” and speaking something wrong. I could be so peaceful in this environment, but I want to make myself busy. Life will be no challenge if I watch videos after work and spend the whole weekend without moving around. Hence, studying abroad is a change of environment, an unfamiliar world, and a reason forcing me to change my personality.

正如第二部冰雪奇缘的名字——Into the unknown，我想要去探索未知的领域。希望我能坚持下来，永不后悔。

As the name of Frozen 2 – Into the unknown, I want to explore what I haven’t experienced. I hope that I could insist on everything in the future and never be regretful to this choice.